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#72

2009-04-16T23:45:00.003+08:00

i hate school.

#71: TIO SCAM

2009-03-21T13:17:00.001+08:00

Normal people would find it a pain to do differentiation and integration, so imagine my joy when i found out that it was not tested for March CTs.

Until i started doing differential equations and power series - which rely heavily on D&I.

I got scammed =( RJ damn scheming la.

#70: OMGOMGOMG

2009-02-28T12:58:00.002+08:00

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG ALL HAIL MY (temporary) return to the blogging scene!

And I am only here because I am doing vectors and it is terribly annoying and any distraction is therefore very welcome.

Probably no one is going to discover this post till eons later because of the apparent death of my blog but NO, I am awesome and have revived it! This, however, is not going to last long.

School is getting more fun nowadays, though it comprises of a lot more studying, it's actually somewhat fun when the entire class studies together! K not ENTIRE, but most of the class anyway. What a drastic difference from last year honestly. The guys used to play cards at every break, now it's CHINESE CHESS. SO intellectually stimulating.

Okay I have nothing more to say because my life revolves around school.

TILL NEXT TIME!

#69

2009-01-06T19:14:00.002+08:00

Very lazy to think of titles for my posts.

Yesterday was fun! Though the inefficiency of the school kind of made my day very wasted. Was supposed to have a talk by the principal for about an hour but it ended up being a very very slow 15 minute talk by some.. dean I think. Dancing the befriender's dance was kind of funny, especially looking at people with mismatched heights trying to do the befriender's turn, and Weekian and I were pretty alright at it, so there wasn't very much excitement. The whole event ended 1 hour earlier than expected, so I trooped down to RG to meet Leeqi after that.

Going back to RG was pretty fun, looking at all the house boards and blocks with awful colour coordination and seeing teachers again, some of whom were delightful and some of whom reminded me of bad times and some whose names just escapes me (I can't remember the name of the teacher that called me up to scold me for 8 whole minutes, I cannot believe it.) Looking back on all that I used to be part of and feeling the nostalgia.. kind of.

The auntie at stall 5 still remembers me and Cheryl, because admittedly we spent a lot of our time in RG in the canteen pigging out on Tao Kae Noi or random new snacks. I still cringe at the sight of prefects, whether or not they can book me (HAHA TAKE THAT). I still try not to make eye contact with teachers so I don't have to greet them (which is a very very bad habit). I still like to go to popular to look at pens. I still walk by the side to avoid the security guards. Prefects are still not at the prefects room when you want to buy school badges.

Things have changed though. J block is now quite hideous with a fairly random colour scheme and there are many buildings that have sprouted out of nowhere. The floor of the squash courts have FINALLY been resurfaced. The plants just outside of J block have grown to be much bigger than when I last saw them.

Felt quite good walking through these gates again, though I must say it was very odd seeing RG girls with yellow name tags again.

Met up with Leeqi to shop, and by shop I mean walk aimlessly around, eating and playing with toys at the Better Toy Store, drinking coffee at Starbucks while WILLING our phones to work - it was quite unfortunate that both our phones ran out of battery and we were practically un-contactable till Yx came to save us. Had been a long time since I spent quality time with Leeqi without the rowdiness of frisbee guys (HAHA) and random interjections and it really felt good!

Dinner was kind of good though exorbitant. Clarke Quay shall be my new place of exploration and adventure.

As you can tell my interest in blogging has dwindled significantly since the start of the post.

MY PHONE IS BACK.

#68: Misfortune

2009-01-04T11:44:00.002+08:00

(This post was written with yesterday's angst.)

Three days into the new year and I'm already not very optimistic about how this might turn out. The whole new-beginning thing seems to wield much power into flinging me into an abyss of prolific disaster (you may think I'm exaggerated but WAIT TILL YOU HEAR ABOUT THE DAY I HAD)

1. Woke up late for training because I was an idiot and set the alarm to the wrong day.

2. Then on the way to West Coast Park we overshot our stop and had to walk a long distance back to our destination which was awful because that is something you just don't want to do in the morning.

3. During training, which was supposed to be good, I TWISTED MY ANKLE and ergo could do nothing more than watch and occasionally take pictures.

4. Midway through training (or in my case, sitting idly at the sidelines), my mother informs me that TUITION STARTS AGAIN! Hence I went to tuition without even a pen.

5. After tuition, my phone spoils, and I cannot switch it on. And I had to search everywhere for a pay phone - honestly, who uses those. My phone is now therefore nothing more than a piece of .... I don't know what it's made of.

I originally resolved to go without a phone until I get down to begging my parents for a new one - after all if they cannot call me, they cannot nag at me to go home earlier HOHO - but though I can survive without one, it'd mean I have to resort to suburban methods of meeting people which would require me to actually be punctual and a whole other load of awful virtues which I am unfortunately devoid of and THE MORAL (not a moral, actually) OF THE STORY IS THAT I WILL GO TO REPAIR MY PHONE AND TREAT IT WITH GREAT CARE HENCEFORTH.

#67

2009-01-01T14:07:00.003+08:00

After abandoning my blog for a shamefully long period of time, I've decided to resurrect it since I have nothing better to do.

It's the New Year, and the New Year inadvertently brings about with it many cliches and things that you Do For The Sake of Doing, such as making New Year resolutions. Well I've always thought that it was kind of pointless to wait till NEW YEAR'S DAY to make all resolutions for the coming year because it's JUST another year and resolutions can be made anytime because any day is one year away from another year and such formalities are just bullshit, but somehow the fact that you have to write a different last digit when you write the date on your tutorial feels EMPOWERING, and I shall jump on the bandwagon and list down a few promises to myself that hopefully will not be broken.

SO here goes huiwen's list of things that she says she has to do and probably will keep to them until June, when she will be tired of trying and give up anyway - but hopefully not.

1. Not fall asleep in lectures or tutorials. (Arguably the hardest point to achieve)

2. Finish 90% of tutorials before the deadline.

3. Train extremely hard for InterJC`09.

4. Walk away from stupid arguments.

5. Avoid having arguments with stupid people. (In my books anyone that argues with me is stupid MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA k i'm kidding)

6. THINK BEFORE TALKING.

7. Remember to Thank God for everything, good or bad.

8. Not sleep any time past 2am

9. Eat less

We'll just see how much of it I can achieve (:

2008 was a crazy year when everything just flurried by without my realising it. So many heartbreaks, disappointments, things coming and going, PEOPLE coming and going, transitions from being trapped in the rudiments to growing up and taking small steps into a new grown-up world where the reins of your life are being handed to you, moving out of comfort zones and trusting people with your heart and trusted and pressured to be better, better, better.

But 2009 brings a general aura of fear, excitement, apprehensiveness and general feeling of not-knowing-what-to expect-or-do. With A LEVELS now being less than 11 months away and InterJC looming nearer and nearer and the desire to play more just to have something to look back on in future and having to invest time into building meaningful relationships with people and not just superficial interactions (haha van de waals) there is just so many things to do and so so little time.

But without a doubt, 2009 brings new hope that everything good in 2008 will be bigger and better and time will heal everything and things will fall in place and make sense like how God intended it to.

So, I will face it with gusto and aplomb!

Happy New Year Everyone :)

#66: You got coin?

2008-12-11T23:57:00.003+08:00

Today was a very eventful day!

Was forced to wake up early in the morning at 9am by my mother who promptly switched off the air conditioning and cut off my ventilation in a bid to get me out of bed fast. After which I bathed and went back to sleep for another 2 hours. This holiday business is turning me into a sloth.

Went shopping for Eugene's birthday present at AMK hub. I now proclaim that it is a MYTH that shopping with guys gets things done a lot faster because guys are just as indecisive and fickle-minded - they just don't bother in recce-ing much, which isn't necessarily a good thing.

Halfway through, the weather, behaving every bit like a petulant child, decided to deal us with an outrageous downpour which totally screwed up plans for outdoor Physical Training and caused the transport back to school to be highly inconvenient. Nevertheless we managed to board bus 88 back to school when another episode unfolded. (My life is full of drama, I tell you)

The moment we plopped ourselves down on the seats, a middle-aged man decided that we looked stupid and decided to come up with a series of unconvincing and irrelevant stories in a futile attempt to gain sympathy and thereby con us into giving him money. He must've been quite stupid, because Yixuan was wearing the school PE t-shirt, and I suppose that being from a reputable school in Singapore, we were less likely to be buying his stupid lies, which were unoriginal and INCOHERENT.

First, he identified himself as a Singapore citizen (to gain credibility? I don't know how the below-average mind works, sorry) and proceeded to talk about how he lost his EZ link card (ORLY????) and international passports TWICE (because absent-mindedness deserves social sympathy and donations from the general public) and how he got chased out of the house (FOR BEING INCOHERENT AND GOOD-FOR-NOTHING MAYBE?) and whatever relative who was sick and asked the MILLION DOLLAR QUESTION: "Do you have coins?"

In case it wasn't a scam, and we were being rude, Kenneth asked "How much?" to which he replied "$5" and he was immediately identified as a Bad Conman. We all said that we didn't have coins of course, surely no one has $5 worth of coins in their wallet at any point of time? "$2 also can..." Kenneth being the nice guy that he is, gave him 40cents (giving him ANYTHING AT ALL would be considered nice already)......

YOU'RE NOT GETTING A SINGLE CENT FROM ME MAN.

At this point, I was pretty amused by the man's awful acting - I think he was attempting to SEEM like he was on the verge of tears, but all he managed to look was CONSTIPATED, and Zhefei and I were trying SO HARD not to laugh that we took out books to read and pretended to be laughing at each other's literature when I was reading a novel about twisted minds. And Kenneth just shut his eyes and pretended to sleep (or was he praying? I don't know) and Yixuan.. Okay well I don't know what he was doing, it was all very awkward.

Realising that we would not give him any money at all, he wanted to borrow our PHONES TO "CALL HIS MOTHER" which obviously none of us obliged, even though it was the second level of a double deckered bus and it would be rather hard to make off with a handphone, I would not allow his dirty hands touching my phone. Then he asked us whether we had PHONE CARDS or not. Oh gosh, this is just stooping to new lows seriously, PHONE CARD ALSO GOOD TO STEAL?!!!?!?!

What a hassle isn't it, just to get 40cents out of 4 people? Here, let me introduce you to a new method of getting money quickly. It's called EMPLOYMENT, DUDE.

We decided that it was too awkward a bus ride, so we decided to pretend that we were getting off and relocate to the lower deck, but Kenneth was too fast for us and flew off the bus, so we made a transfer. We would rather lose 35cents for a bus ride than give it to that good-for-nothing.

Wow that was a very long story.

After we reached school we commenced physical training which involved running the perimeter of RI and RJ and random exercises such as wall sits and assorted things which I am sure you are not interested in. So in order to make my blog more interesting, I am going to provide a picture!!!!!! So awesumzzz.

This has been a sufficiently long post, be happy!

#65: Of flying brown discs

2008-12-10T21:31:00.003+08:00

There, this is the obligatory post about the Inter-JC Hat tournament which you expected me to post yet wasn't sure of it due to my blogging vagaries, coming 2 days too late but here nonetheless. (That was a very long and awkward sentence but I don't quite care). Wanted to wait for the pictures to arrive, but I suppose that I'll have lost all motivation to write anything about it and it will just fade into oblivion.

Was quite blessed to be part of an awesome team comprising of ME of course that's why it's awesome hahahahahahaha kthnx, Zhangkai, Cheng, Kenneth, Dng, Sijie, Cecilia, Jazlyn, Xiuying, Ralene, Reyor and Yellow-shirt guy whose name I cannot spell, which eventually won SECOND PLACE beating cat's team (hohohoho cat fat already) and marginally losing to the first team.

The games were really fun, because I actually SCORED FOR ONCE (twice, actually) which is now like a rare occurrence because I am lazy like that, plus my team was quite alright on the flow until we were near the endzone then cue the endless turnovers.

Apart from the erratic weather which had everyone shivering and hiding behind each other and huddling for warmth, the strong wind which sent our discs spinning out of control and ricocheting off the ground, the muddy field that caused my shirt to turn a shitty brown and caused my mum to go into a hissy fit, it was a day to remember.

Pictures!

#64

2008-12-06T22:18:00.002+08:00

I DON'T WANT THIS HOLIDAY TO EVER EVER END!!

because i have so much catching up to do, so much to study, and A's are 11 months away!!

&there's never enough time to spend time with people we <3333333333333333

#63: Global HEATING

2008-12-01T20:42:00.002+08:00

Basked in yet another unproductive day lazing around the house today with no motivation to read about vectors or alkanes. I blame this on the awful, erratic weather which brought misery with its unusually high temperature and strong rays of light, which either was the cause or exacerbated my foul mood today which I decided to remedy by sleeping through the large part of the day.

Which trapped me in a vicious cycle as the knowledge of my lack of productivity was highly disconcerting.

I have nothing more to say.

#62: ...

2008-11-27T23:08:00.001+08:00

One day I'm going to get sick of this.

#61: Must. Remain. Zen.

2008-11-27T10:38:00.002+08:00

Was supposed to meet the peeps at 12, but unfortunately, my entire family's routine revolves around a contraption known as the washing machine - originally meant as a device to aid and simplify the lives of mankind, but has henceforth evolved into a regulatory system that traps one unfortunate person at home to settle the washing by waiting one entire hour to shift the clothes from the washing machine into the DRYER - and I will therefore be late.

You can scream your frustrations out, and so can I.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Zen.

#60

2008-11-21T11:14:00.005+08:00

It has been an inexplicably long time since I felt like this. In case you don't know me, NO, I AM NOT EMO.

BUT I am ACHING all over due to the Physical Training yesterday which was not exceedingly challenging, but tiring nonetheless. 4 rounds of warm up, 3 rounds of interval, pyramid up to 7 (which is 1 push up, 1 crunch, 1 tuck jump, 2 push ups, 2 crunches... all the way up to 7 then back down again - doesn't sound like it, but TRUST ME, it's tiring) planks, wall sit, lunging and throwing drills.

Weird as it seems, considering I spent 11am- 4.30pm doing integration (okay fine, I did get distracted) and then spent the next 3 hours torturing my body in all sorts of sado-masochistic methods as mentioned above, I had a pretty fun day!

& Michelle, I must Officially Welcome You Into Frisbee! It's damn cool that we're gonna be in the same CCA for like, 5 years or something &&& i lubbs euu veli much!

Yes, we were dissecting a frog :D We are MEN!

This is the face of the girl that accompanied me to Queensway in a painful 3-hour ordeal to Buy Sports Shoes (no, I'm not FINALLY doing something girly). I am forever indebted to you!!

Also, I am DELIGHTED at gmail's new layout! I HAVE NINJAS TO CHEER ME UP WHENEVER I LOG INTO GMAIL!! So awesumz.

Omg my posts are becoming frivolous ):

#59: Excellence

2008-11-17T20:46:00.003+08:00

Care more than others think is wise

Risk more than others think is safe

Dream more than others think is practical

Expect more than others think is possible!

#58: Disintegrate

2008-11-13T21:23:00.004+08:00

Yes, I realise I have been neglecting my blog way too much and the number of visitors per day is surely dwindling (:O CRI!), but my life has been way too dysfunctional and disjointed and not to mention uneventful to be worth my time typing about it so you know, deal with it. In fact, I am only blogging because I feel some slight obligation toward the random bored soul that chances upon my blog. Hi! MY LIFE IS EXCITING!

I can't believe that 2008 is ending and A levels are less than a year away. I shudder to think of the amount of studying that I will be doing next year. I already picture myself sitting in a corner of the library with worksheets, files and books strewn across the tableS (one is never enough) with food hidden underneath the enormous piles of academic decadence and averting the librarian's glare while dutifully loading myself with information that will not contribute to my development as a useful human being whatsoever. Fabulous.

Don't have much to document my life with since I mostly hang out with people that do not camwhore compared to the liberal amount of photos taken in RG. I KIND OF miss RG sometimes, not the school but the people and the free reign over doing stupid things. Will never miss the straight-laced prefects who fault people for making "excessive noise" --> I kid you not, some people get booked for that. Not me of course, I am demure and quiet teehee.

Listen to me! I am rambling on and on and on. This can only mean one thing.

I AM OLD.

#57: of vodka and .. idiots.

2008-11-06T21:36:00.006+08:00

This shall be a semi-exciting post with pictures in order to fool all you readers that I'm putting in effort to blog when in actual fact I am simply uploading pictures to fill this void space!

Class barbecue was super fun, thanks to the resident drunkard, whom by the way, I will pwn flat next year because he is obnoxious and I am determined to do so.

The food, vodka and company were awesome, certainly a vast difference in the personalities in class (well I suppose stifling classrooms are not quite conducive for having fun).

Not dreading next year as much now :)

#56: EMANCIPATION!!!!!!

2008-11-04T19:05:00.002+08:00

The Oral Presentation today marks the conclusion of a whole year of misery that is PW. The months of staying up late to do reports or edit graphs or create powerpoints have COME TO A GLORIOUS END. No more complaining about having to stare at thousands of words, or sifting through the net for people who write articles about estranged geriatrics, heck, no more calling old people GERIATRICS and having to explain it to people. I. Am. So. Excited!

OP was kind of fun after you get over the initial trepidation of talking animatedly in front of 10 scared faces and 2 pairs of judging eyes. In fact, after my turn to present all that floated in the recesses of my mind was that "PW IS OVER OVER OVER" and I couldn't care less about Q&A.

I am having a delightful time deleting the PW files on my computer. One By One I drag them into the trash to be ERADICATED FOR ALL OF ETERNITY! The torment of PW has turned me into a delirious and maniacal person.

BUT IT'S OVER HOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO.

#55: pwop goes the weasel!

2008-10-30T09:29:00.003+08:00

Since the last time I posted, which I admit is quite a while ago, my life has not upped its excitement factor, but is rather characterized by random outings and worrying about PWOP yet not doing anything about it. As such, it is 5 days away from my presentation, and my script has not been memorized. Reality NEEDS to sink in soon.

Also, since I am too lazy to post about all that has happened, partly due to the fact that my memory is not serving me well - the end of school signaled the start of brain atrophy - I shall only blog about Wednesday.

It marked Hannah and my debut at pick ups which was eye opening but nonetheless demoralizing to be outrun by astoundingly fit girls. It is now evident how much harder we have to work.

Preceding that, however, we were at zf's house (:O FIRST TIME) playing soul calibur, which Hannah thrashed me at even though she was a noob. I blame it on unfavourable circumstances and divine intervention. Watched Kungfu Hustle too, which by the way was completely frivolous yet oddly riveting.

Thursday was spent doing PW and watching Disturbia with Zhefei in a classroom while Josh falls asleep on the table. Nothing eventful.

Today, the PW group met for what seems to be the second time for this entire year, excluding PW lessons for forty minutes to practice a grand total of 1 time before deciding that we were sick of each others' faces and parted. Thankfully too, I was getting sick of saying the word elderly so many times.

Met up with Geri, GV, Charm and Kok to have high tea at Sakae Sushi, strategically planned so that we could have all-you-can-eat buffet (okay maybe not strategically planned since we waited for over an hour for it to start) during we managed to invoke the displeasure of the supervisor by laughing characteristically loudly and ordering copious amount of food. This included sashimi sushi - ingesting only the sashimi and stuffing the rice into containers and stashing it into bags so that we wouldn't get fined for food wastage. Ingenious I know.

Talked about RJ life with Kok and Charm after that, during which we lament about crazy people and funny rumours. I need to hang out more with girls, I'm sure of it.

This has been a disjointed post.

Here's an abrupt endin -

#54: puwhop

2008-10-13T19:27:00.003+08:00

There has been a severe lack of surprise in my life lately, the most eventful .. event being GHS, which was a letdown because I paid $10 to play for 5 minutes before my hamstring decided to go on strike and render me unable to sit, stand or walk without a niggling pain in my leg.

The competition was not much to talk about though, because we basically got thrashed and did not win any game due to rustiness and general lack of fitness (in my case, anyway) and the crazily high temperatures on that day seems to have blurred my recollection of the day, the most distinct memory being the countless trips to cold storage to buy drinks and supplies.

Some parts of it was an eye-opener though, at least we know how much harder we have to work :)

Dinner was the most exciting period of the day. Sitting near Cheng, Yx and Zk when eating really ups the fun factor by a lot, especially when there is a free flow of mocha ice cream which bears a striking resemblance to the 'human fecal waste' seen in 2 girls 1 cup. Don't judge me, it's actually really funny and only mildly gross, though ZK would beg to differ. He was definitely not pleased when we decided to imitate the 2 unfortunate protagonists in the video and was on the verge of regurgitating his dinner.

After that, everyone decided that they were tired and wanted to go home, but ZK and I, gambled our fate on a coin and decided to be crazy and follow YX to serangoon before taking a bus home. But we all ended up on Vivo rooftop looking at the moon and the weird patterns of the clouds surrounding it and differentiating stars from Singtel satellites. Twas fun. Found out some stuff that sent me into histrionics for a good part of the night. Hoho.

I am no longer cogent. Now back to PWOP, which I have been putting off for a while now ):

/edit: I AM PISSED OFF THAT MY DATE HAS TO BE CANCELLED BECAUSE MY PERSONALITY NEEDS PROFILING.

#53

2008-10-10T15:34:00.004+08:00

Once again my blog has fallen into the abyss of inactivity and boringness due to my inexplicable laziness and lack of interesting material.

Training is as usual, fun and the CCA mates are full of shit its not funny that it's funny. Pardon the incoherence, I'm doing Math. Yes, Math.

Must write this down before I forget. Yesterday at Cheng's house, some guys were playing tarot cards and attempting to use them to tell the future, which in Zk's case stated that he would be dead before he was born. When it came to Yx's turn,

ZK: Think of a question, any question, just make sure it's not something that you can't tell us because you have to say it out later.

YX: Okay.

Tarot card riots go on with random stacks of cards piled on each other.

CX: YOU GOT 'THE FOOL"

ZK: Is that good or bad?

CX: -Reads the description written by Wise Chinese Merchants-

ZK: So what's your question?

YX: What's my favourite colour?

Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahaha

#52: CARPE DIEM

2008-10-06T19:40:00.002+08:00

MAJULAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I know, I'm getting boring. DEAL WITH IT!

If you can't dazzle them with brilliance, baffle them with bullshit :)

#51: RESPITE!

2008-10-04T20:53:00.003+08:00

Okay the previous few major occasions have been spent with the frisbee guys, as usual. Before long they are going to get sick of my face (the only right response to that is "NO LA", guys).

Training is getting frustrating for me, since I am simply disgustingly off form and cannot catch or throw for nuts. Oh by the way, nuts is a bad word in gunbound, and so is "stupid", "damn", "wtf" and "grapes". Have equipped myself with the skill of playing gunbound recently, despite being not very good at it, I actually enjoy it pretty much. Look at me, I HAVE A LIFE!

PW is gonna start soon. Am quite sure it's going to own my ass. Boo.

#50: EMANCIPATION!!!!!!!

2008-09-25T23:55:00.005+08:00

YES PROMOS ARE OVER (for the bio people)!

Various things have changed over this period of my (relative) inactivity. For example, the school cafeteria has now officially been knighted and named as "The Canteen", with a large sign RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE of it, which is pretty pointless if you ask me. As if it were completely possible to miss the canteen when it is BUSTLING with activity and is quite often the centre of social activity in RJ and to completely demean the random visitor's intelligence by shoving it up their noses. NOOOOOOO, its not a tuckshop, its not a food court, it is The Canteen.

"GOLLY SO MANY FOOD STALLS! COULD THIS BE......"

"THE CANTEEN?" -gasp-

You'd have thought that that sign would be put at least in some place where the canteen wouldn't be visible from...

Also, the canteen vendors actually have their stall name emblazoned above it. Awesome! Now in said of "I'm going to buy from stall 7", you can proudly proclaim that "I SHALL BE PURCHASING FOOD FROM RAFFLES YONG TAU FOO, AND HAVE DESSERT FROM THE FRUITFUL FRUITS STALL!" The signs are aesthetically unappealing (to me at least), but I guess it's KIND OF useful for people who don't know what food is being served where. That was the sole redemption of it.

ON TO HAPPIER THINGS!

Today was fun! Even though I spent half my days watching the frisbee guys play DoTA, swearing at each other while trying to figure out what "creeps" and whatever meant. But I totally understand why you'd need to destroy a frozen throne. You'd get frostbite on your ass if you tried sitting on it. IT IS EVIL THEREFORE IT SHOULD BE DESTROYED.

Didn't do much except talk a hell lot of rubbish and watch many stupid videos. But yes, (I admit) it's the company that was really awesome fun!

I resolve to get along with yx's dog :) and leave capt as the only dog-fearing person amongst everyone.

#49: Finding X

2008-09-23T19:40:00.004+08:00

Temporarily broke my fast from the internet to be a busybody and read about other people's lives while being completely jaded from my own insipid one. I am pretty much brain dead now. Hence the incoherent sentences with no thought put into it whatsoever.

I had a dream about Lee Hsien Loong, swivel chairs and petulant children last night. Amazing how they all amalgamate in ONE DREAM.

I am

#48: 10 things I hate about you

2008-09-20T01:36:00.004+08:00

I hate the way you talk to me

The way you cut your hair ;

I hate it when you drive my car,

I hate the way you stare

I hate your big dumb combat boots,

The way you read my mind

I hate you so much it makes me sick

It even makes me rhyme

I hate the way you're always right

I hate it when you lie

I hate it when you make me laugh

Even worse when you make me cry

I hate it when you're not around

And the fact that you didn't call

But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you,

Not even close, not even a little bit

Not even at all

Love the show :)

#47: Rant

2008-09-19T17:15:00.002+08:00

Yes, I am slacking off and yes I know I will sorely regret it in time to come.

I am annoyed at a couple of things right now:

#1: Chupa Chups and the way they wrap their lollipops. Honestly I had to wrestle it open just to get some sugar in my blood.

#2: The fact that no matter how much I study now, I'm going to screw up Promos very badly. Hence I have turned to prayer and hope that a miracle will descend upon my very dismal situation and magically make everything better. I know, what are the chances, right? I deserve it anyway.

#3: I hate it that I deserve it.

#4: The weather is incredibly awful. The sun is shining in and I'm sitting next to the window. I know, WHY DON'T I MOVE? I'm lazy that's why, and NEVER YOU MIND.

#5: I'm pissed off at my own grouchiness.

$6: Study breaks are in fact worse than school days - they spell studying without the fun.

#7: I have not thrown a frisbee in an inexplicably long time. The effects of this shall rear its ugly head once training resumes and I will be bouncing up and down the field like a GIANT PIECE OF FAT.

#8: This is an incredibly bad time to newly acquire a website for free-movie viewing. I just watched Music and Lyrics while reading Chem. No prizes for guessing where my focus was on, though.

#9: It is SCARY the way I'm not caring.

#10: I SUCK AT EVERYTHING I DO

I realise I am just whining, please ignore this post.

#46: WAKE ME UP WHEN SEPTEMBER ENDS.

2008-09-17T22:19:00.004+08:00

Oh man, just received my post-promos timetable and I'll have LOTS of free time. Damn screwed up, but I'm definitely looking forward to the large expanses of time to WASTE.

IN ONE WEEK'S TIME IT SHALL BE OVER.

#45: AHHHHH!

2008-09-13T02:53:00.003+08:00

I MISS THESE PEOPLEEEE

#44: MIDNIGHT MUGGING (sorta)

2008-09-05T01:31:00.003+08:00

Whoa, it's been a tumultuous week. Much as I want it to end soon, the prospect of inching slowly towards the Promos is rather harrowing.

Holidays are in fact, badly disguised school days, save for the occasional day when you get to stay at home at do nothing at all (in which case you ought to be feeling very ashamed of yourself for not having guilt trips for doing nothing - I get plenty) and spent either a) studying your guts out or b) worrying that you are NOT studying your guts out. Life is such a bed of roses.

I fear I am getting fat. My rate of eating is unparalleled, I believe. My appetite is tremendous, and I feel as if I'm pregnant with quintuplets or something (I hereby assure you I am not). I can feel the lipids being synthesized every nano second. When school starts I shall attempt to survive on a diet that is 90% fibre and 10% protein or something to that effect. That sounds like an awful lot of constipation/diarrhoea, whichever may apply.

Withdrawal symptoms of frisbee are kicking in. I am highly disgruntled and very annoyed that after surviving for 8 months in Ultimate without a frisbee, I now have 3 and have NO TIME to utilize any of those. I would throw them around in the house, but that is likely to warrant much breakage and disdain from my mother who insists that I shouldn't be running around in the sun chasing plastic discs, much less bringing the activity to our home. I foresee that the first thing I'd do when Promos is run unrestrained on the second field flinging discs in sheer ecstasy. Oh, what a sight that would be!

Oh a side note, I've just webcammed with LeeQi who is in CANADA happily eyecandying hot guys and I am stuck in sunny Singapore studying about how monopoly is our downfall.

You are not allowed to judge me based on how I look in that picture. NOBODY wears contacts at home except for the exceptionally vain.

Downloading a program that could allow a webcam to function like it ought on a mac was a torturous ordeal that took a lot of time off from my mugging but it is all worth it! That was incredibly fun!

Okay, back to TRYING to study. By the way, DO NOT ask me about my progress - I hate talking about it unless I am way ahead of everyone else, in which case I'll be the one asking you.

Don't die, everyone, and stop coming to my blog and STUDY. (oh, the irony!)

#43: DISCipline!

2008-09-03T14:15:00.003+08:00

PRETTY :D

#42: FREAKSHOWWWWWW

2008-08-31T22:43:00.002+08:00

Okay, the title has nothing whatsoever related to what I am about to post, but due to my rustiness at blogging I have to resort to typing in anything that appears before my eyes.

As usual with my occasional blog posts, this one is pretty much obligatory, as without the regular blog updates from other blogs, I have resorted to updating my own to keep myself amused (yes, the way I function astounds me as well).

Actually many amusing things have been going on in my life - as with my class it is usually wise to expected the unexpected. And because I feel obliged to document this momentous occasion, I shall share it with the world...

Twas a Monday afternoon before Chem Focus and we were late for Mr Paul Cheong's class. Just as we arrived at the classroom, Sir commanded us to change back into uniform before attending class (another one of the school's idiosyncrasies) and while we were taking our uniforms out of our bags, Sir emerged from the classroom, provoking our knee-jerk reaction, which was to SCREAM AND RUN DOWN THE STAIRS. It's amazing, how our innate interest is of self-preservation.

Mr Paul Cheong, for the uninformed, is incidentally the one behind the quotes

"Your stupidity DEFIES IMAGINATION" and "NO2- is nitr-I-T-E, where some of you should be".

J2 Farewell was quite a long time ago, but I just have to write this down so I don't forget that it actually happened. It was quite great, I think we've finally sorted out what really mattered to us as a team, and personally I think I've forgiven AC, though that does not necessarily equate to any form of friendliness to them whatsoever. Still working on it.

And today was SingOpen. Spent the entire day trying to keep myself relatively clean, which proved an immense challenge for the mud was unforgiving. Managed to keep myself and my bag rather pristine until just before we left, someone spilled an entire cup of beer on my bag. Needless to say I was not quite pleased, but that fact that I received a free disc for helping out at the booth all day negated it. 3 discs for $35, not bad indeed.

Henceforth I will attempt to abstain from the evils of the computer until Promos are over.

#41: Disconnect

2008-08-23T19:27:00.002+08:00

Leeqi left today. Not as in died, but she flew away on a plane to Canada this morning. She's missed already. But hello leeqi if you're reading this the first people you call when you come back has GOT to be us :)

Went out with the frisbee guys after that. As usual, outings with them are always fun. Ate at burger king, which prices have soar to unprecedented heights at, and proceeded to go to Paradiz centre to play pool. I think my psychomotor reactions aren't quite good, I simply cannot hit balls with sticks. My post doesn't quite do the day justice, because it was very fun despite how i ended up mugging at a lan shop for a while.

This is my lackadaisical attempt at a blog post. Some random quiz which I got from HP who got it from Edmund:

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates. --> HAHAH BULLSHIT.

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job. --> DON'T WANT LEH I WANT TO MARRY A RICH MAN. (just kidding.)

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success. --> This is some subliminal message for me to PLEASE STUDY NOW.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you. --> totally.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

DID YOU SEE THAT? I AM MATURE, REASONABLE, HONEST AND I GIVE GOOD ADVICE.

I LOVE THIS QUIZ

#40: PW RETURNSSSSSS

2008-08-17T20:57:00.002+08:00

JUST when I thought I'd get a break, and well-deserved too, from PW, it is back with a vengeance. Armed with the bloodied Draft 1, I write the second draft with aplomb, disgruntled.

I know, it's getting really boring. Each rare occasion when I come back to blog I talk about uninteresting things that is totally not worth your time reading. But alas! The slow death of my blog seems to send a subliminal message that the death of my social life is imminent, and I must say, I have to concur. I could be playing at pickup but NO I spend my entire blasted day typing away at my laptop deciphering the infinite scribbles on the 41-page report.

Am now taking a break from the dreadful work by watching the table tennis finals, which is equally dreadful, actually. What a waste of time. I daresay I rather watch the National Day Rally than watch an unexciting match of China vs China. My mother doesn't quite seem to be excited at the prospect of gold, though. She thinks we pay less to them if we lose. Can't say it isn't true.

Commentator: Singapore is in the lead. Don't know how many times I can say that.

Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha stupid fat woman.

#39: AWWWWWW

2008-08-10T12:09:00.002+08:00

To cover up for my lack of blogging material, I have taken to posting pictures in a bid to fool people into believing that I actually have a life.

My baby cousin! :)

#38: IT IS AUGUST!

2008-08-08T10:24:00.002+08:00

Ohhhh my goodness i haven't blogged in so long I can see virtual cobwebs forming across my blog and I'm making some effort to clear them right now I deserve a standing ovation. (Don't worry Zhangkai, you have no credit in this)

Anyway, the only reason I'm posting right now is because I HAVE NO SCHOOL TODAY (this is to spite all you people who diss RJ HA! I bet you're wishing you're in RJ now) and I'm typing this on my laptop while lying in bed. Indeed, this is the life.

Nat Day Celebrations were quite awesome yesterday, though I dedicated 2 hours of my time (mainly to get the free shirt, which is simply fieeeerce) to scooping Mee Goreng for people some of whom didn't fancy Mee Goreng much. Hannah too, also motivated by the shirt, was serving people chicken drumlets and sambal fishballs. Didn't participate much in the activities around school because there were too many and I couldn't be bothered to decide which one to go for, and the frisbee people were playing frisbee soccer and that's always good to watch.

The concert was pretty stellar, with modern dance, street dance, gym et cetera performing for us. Though it was quite disruptive given I was sitting next to Yx and Zk, I can't quite blame them, after all, I chose to sit there, but I assure you you do not want to. I never knew lightsticks could be used in such a... lewd manner.

All in all it was a good day, despite the rain, which wasted the $8k stage outdoors. Now to enjoy my longgggg weekend by doing Math (:

#37: Viva la Vida

2008-07-28T21:04:00.000+08:00

Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.
Life is beauty, admire it.
Life is a dream, realize it.
Life is a challenge, meet it.
Life is a duty, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is a promise, fulfill it.
Life is sorrow, overcome it.
Life is a song, sing it.
Life is a struggle, accept it.
Life is a tragedy, confront it.
Life is an adventure, dare it.
Life is luck, make it.

Life is too precious, do not destroy it.
Life is life, fight for it.

- Mother Teresa

#36: All that glitters is not gold.

2008-07-27T11:26:00.005+08:00

And so concludes Inter-JC 2008, the day where all the hard work for the year is put to the Ultimate test.

[edit] I read through my post and decided that it doesn't quite sum up the day, so this is an update.[/edit]

It turned out to be a very unexpected day, with Cat getting elbowed in the head by some random fella (whether on purpose or not remains to be seen) and Guangyu doing MEGA spectacular goals in the nick of time (to everyone's awe) and many other moments which cannot be quantified by words.

1. An ACJC guy laid out (what is the past tense of layout anyway?) on the concrete and started bleeding. The irony of the whole thing was that even though the guy was from ACJC, it was the Rafflesians that rushed over and tended to his wound while his fellow ACJC-ians (though not from same team) did nothing but yell and then proceed to do absolutely nothing about it. I kid you not - I remember expressing dismay about it.

2. Cat got elbowed in the head by some guy (really, who breaks a fall with an elbow? it hurts even more) and just when Leeqi and I were going over to show some concern and check on how he was because he did look like (AND WAS) in great pain, the ACJC guy near us commanded us not to move because it was a foul. Honestly. I understand that we ought to play by the rules of the game, but it doesn't stop us from being flexible. I can jolly well return to my own position afterward. And like Leeqi said, no matter whether it was on purpose or accidental, it is basic courtesy and sportsmanship to APOLOGIZE to the person to whom you have inflicted pain on, is it not?

3. Driving around the field shouting AC ULTIMATE out of the car window is a clear taunt. I don't think anything much needs to be said about it because you as my blog reader are smart enough to rationalize the implications of doing that.

Despite how the day turned out, which ended in us getting silver and Cat being sent off to hospital because his skull was no match for that guy's elbow (he is now okay to those who care), it was actually kind of fun. Taking turns to dive into the mud for a layout drill (though some GUNIANGS didn't, ahem ahem) and slapping each other with mud-stained hands

The highlights of the day were the AC matches (TWICE against the same team imagine our frustration) which was a tough fight but which we eventually lost NARROWLY, BY THE WAY due to unforeseen circumstances and reasons that only ACJC themselves will know. But it is quite pointless to bring that up right now.

Yesterday was the first time that all 15 of us were present and playing together (this is highly reminiscent of Hadley cheerleading last year -.-) but the support and encouragement that the team gave was really.. mind-blowing really. And though this team isn't the one that I usually play on, I am glad to have been part of it.

At the end of the day it is not the gold that matters, but the effort, dignity and INTEGRITY we put in to trying to achieve it.

All that glitters is not gold. In words of Cat, "They may have won the battle, but they are going to lose the war".

#35: Obligatory post

2008-07-24T20:51:00.002+08:00

Apologies to those who are still free enough to come to my blog and found that there has been a tragic lack of posts recently. My life has gone on holiday and it remains to be seen when it will return to its usual 'vibrant' and 'exciting' state.

#34: HAHAHAHAHA

2008-07-23T00:30:00.002+08:00

I take it all back. Chengxiang is HOT.

#33: Beneath Painted Veneers

2008-07-21T22:51:00.002+08:00

I don't feel like blogging much, but here's a quote.

Losers see what they're going through, winners look where they're going to.

I will be strong.

#32: Quickie

2008-07-19T22:38:00.002+08:00

Just a quick update to satiate Leeqi's bursts of boredom due to her free expanses of time. Apologies to my ardent blog readers (e.g. ZK, who claims that my blog is his most visited site TYVM) for the relative lack of updates but my life currently pretty much revolves around frisbee and many happy thoughts and let's admit it, we hate hearing about the happiness of others.

Training yesterday was a complete disaster, seeing as I have zero chemistry with yx whom I was supposed to partner and our drills lasted mega long because of that. Coupled with the fact that when team A trains, girls hardly get involved, Leeqi and I were basically sitting on the field watching the guys train. Not fun. And so we decided to make ourselves useful by walking to 7-11 to buy drinks. Alas! Our worth comes in serving guys.. Just splendid.

Match after that was not too bad however, even though we got whoooooooooped big time, it was kinda fun. And our team was just cheering each other on despite mistakes (this phenomenon is less often seen during our trainings) and this is what makes me proud of my team!

Dinner was the Ultimatum. I was trading pieces of chicken for other pieces of chicken, watch zf eat his spicy chicken meal while having his cheeks flush an awesome red that can usually only be achieved by A LOT of blusher, and laugh at gy's naiveness.

Because I am busy with PW now, and I phailed GP tragically, I will end this post with a IN CONCLUSION. I HAD A GOOD DAY.

I BID THEE FAREWELL AS I LAPSE INTO BOUTS OF INSANITY WHILE TRYING TO COMPLETE MY PW REPORT.

#31: Untitled (ooh paradox)

2008-07-15T22:58:00.003+08:00

It's shitty how ONE PERSON can twist you up inside.

#30: Ignorance and Bliss.

2008-07-14T21:41:00.006+08:00

Since I am feeling rather pensive today, and still fresh from the conversation on the train with leeqi and zhangkai, I shall blog about something that deviates from the usual blog post about my boring life.

Don't you ever get the feeling that being "smarter" in a way tends to rob you of many things? Being smart somehow seems to contribute to the tendency to think a lot about many things, and people who think a lot tend to have very little faith in others. Thinking about things makes you unable to accept a simple act of kindness, or look upon a tiny gesture without thinking and reading too much into it. Granted, it may give you many insights into things that have never been noticed before, but it is also easy to forget that it renders you unable to appreciate things simply as what they are, without wondering whether or not there is an ulterior motive behind it.

It seems, also, that wise people tend to be atheists or have less faith in a religion. Of course, this might be a hasty generalisation, but you cannot say that it is not at least partly true. Being wise/academically smart robs people of the desire to place your belief into anything else except faith in their own abilities, and believe nothing except what their eyes and minds tell them. But isn't it ironic that that is the very basis of faith? If something is placed before your eyes screaming at you to believe in it, then it isn't very much faith anymore is it? Having no reservations about something that isn't tangible and sticking to it no matter what - that, my friends is true faith.

Rather sad isn't it? It gets tiring to be questioning and thinking about things too much, that things simply can't be taken at face value. It builds walls between people. And too many walls, my friend, and you'll be living alone.

We also came to the topic of being nice. Sure, many people can be nice. But just how many people can be genuinely nice without having an ulterior motive behind it?

I personally don't believe in pretending to be nice to someone just to gain their favour, even though behind their backs I may think extremely lowly of that person. Many people think that just by getting people that they don't like to like them, EVEN IF they still don't like them, they automatically win. Sorry friends, you don't. And that obviously says a lot about you as a person.

I've always thought that there was a difference between cordiality and artificiality. If I really don't like a person, I do not deny that I will try to my utmost best to be cordial/at least civil to them (unless of course they prove themselves to be tragically unworthy of it or i simply cannot be bothered - which admittedly happens a lot) so as to avoid awkward silences and blank stares whenever eye contact is made, but I will not go to lengths to act as if we have been best friends since the day we met. Definitely, no one enjoys offending people, and it is only human nature that we feel comfortable with people liking us instead of otherwise, but if two people do not get along well, I see no point in pretending that they do. I appreciate that there is indeed value in trying to be nice to everyone, but it often compromises sincerity, and for people like me (i.e. impatient), it gets tiring, and I do not wish to treat people with hypocrisy.

It's probably easier to first try to bring yourself to like that person. But some people are simply unbearable and it is time to try the next step of trying not to dislike that person. If the problem persists then this is the line for you - "I do not like you, and I cannot pretend that I do. But let's engage in civil and awkward small talk occasionally". I'd also like to qualify that I'm not the easiest person to get along with, but I do have a set of principles which I base my life on, and we'd probably get along if we tried.

At this point I am no longer certain whether I still make sense. But if you disagree/agree, feel free to take it up with me on MSN or on my tagboard. I welcome intellectual banter.

This post is proof that despite my frivolous behaviour, I am able to hold up a discussion that does not involve frisbee or gossip.

#29: I NEED THE WILLPOWER!

2008-07-13T20:54:00.002+08:00

I am experiencing a dreadful lack of willpower required in order for me to complete my Chemistry homework, which until now (since 3 days ago), has been lying on my table, half-done.

That is probably due to my lack in aptitude for it, which culminates in a lack of interest and subsequently a lack of practice, fueling my absolute inability to do it, or anything remotely related (e.g. Bio).

Life is indeed a vicious cycle.

Today would have been absolutely apocalyptic if not for my new discovery, honouredman, who has serenaded me with his genius renditions of pop songs via youtube videos. And this is contributing to my rekindling of my love for music by a large extent. To start of with, I shall be playing guitar hero at any opportunity I get.

Here, be awed.

And this is how my afternoon has been squandered away, watching random videos on youtube and looking for piano scores that could replicate half the awesomeness of the crazy imba guy in the videos. But I guess some people are born with it and some people aren't. How terribly unfortunate.

Okay I typed that 1.5 hours ago I lost interest kthnxbaiii

#28: Pride, Prejudice and PRESSURE.

2008-07-12T21:46:00.004+08:00

Today was a weird day. Woke up feeling rather lethargic from all the decision making yesterday (my first thought in the morning was "WHAT THE THE HELL HAVE I DONE") and was pretty much jaded the whole day.

So I decided to accept the offer to get transferred to the first team AND decided to pull out of Oteam interviews. Don't quite know how I'm supposed to be feeling about both of it anyway. But the decisions have been made, and they cannot be changed, and I'll definitely do my best to maximise satisfaction (because I am a rational person).

Cts have come and gone, and now I'm suffering the backlash from my procrastination during the holidays - the results. Needless to say, I'm not very happy about it but I'll make a comeback during promos.

Training today was rather dismal, for I was throwing as if I didn't know what a frisbee was. Frowned so hard that I'm pretty sure I'll need Botox to deaden those frown lines in the future. Good mood resumed only after running 1.6 km around the track despite hating running. Leeqi and I pwned all the guys today, who were either cramping or cycling around the track (cat). Though we're pretty sure that by next training whatever enthusiasm for running will be languished.

Spent the rest of the day playing Wii at Leeqi's house. I completely owned Zhangkai and Leeqi at tennis, but bowling.. Let's just say I'm working on it. And I am a guitar hero! Leeqi will attest to that for I tortured their ears by repeating the same song numerous times in a bid to complete the stage, which I eventually did and Leeqi is jealous :) Though I am not quite good at Mortal Kombat. I attribute it to my peaceful nature.

--> I am a Wii-ner!

#27: Enlightening indeed.

2008-07-11T19:45:00.002+08:00

Oh goodness, I just read through the previous few posts on my blog and I am quite disgusted at how I felt then. Well those feelings come and go, but SOME last for quite a while.

Today was a pretty splendid day, with Chemistry in the morning deviating from its usually tense mood and was even, dare I say, FUN. The rest of the lessons kind of wheezed past, except Econs, which to my dismay was conducted by the tutor with the sharp voice. Her screech can make your ears bleed, and even amidst the buzz of the lecture theatre, I could distinctly hear her microphone calling out for help.

The day ended with a bang, with the class surprising Esther with a cake after pretending to be uninterested in it for the entire day. Of course, the serenade of birthday songs was aptly arranged to be right in the middle of Econs tutorial, which incidentally kept me from going back to sleep. So this is my tribute to The Rugger: HAPPY BIRTHDAY ESTHER! MAY YOU LORD OVER THE BOYS IN OUR CLASS!

Hung around with the frisbee people after school and listening to them talk about their uhm, experiences. Not the best topic I must add, but it certainly was very entertaining and.. insightful. Dinner was all the more eventful when the guys decided to shoot ice at each other. Jarrell shot one at Joshua, who ducked, and expectedly, the ice flew to another table and hit some poor lady. Needless to say, her husband was not pleased.

Very glad I have friends like that :)

#26: Enough is enough

2008-07-10T21:21:00.002+08:00

Whoa, now stop right there.

You're still not getting it. Though honestly, I don't expect you to.

But really. I'm just getting so sick of your ways of seeking attention. Well you're getting it man, but in all the wrong ways, let me tell you that.

And it sucks when all I can do is be a hypocrite and try to appear as though I'm getting along, but if I had my way, you'll probably be out of my life. This may just be a spur-of-the-moment post, but it is the only way I can sublimate my rage and wrath and agony, to prevent myself from erupting like a long dormant volcano.

I am not pleased, and trust me, you do not like it when I am not pleased. Ostentatious, odious and oblivious - that's what you are.

Oh God, please help me to forgive and forget ): Please slap me if I ever post about this again!

Now on to happier things! (okay yes that was an awkward shift in moods)

I'm really looking forward to frisbee on Saturday. It's really one of the only things that keep me going, even if yes, we may have to run 2.4km after every training henceforth, I will learn to enjoy it. And I'm pretty sure I'll be eating my words come next training.

I guess the good thing about being in team 2 is that there's a significantly larger margin for error, which doesn't come with the pressure of being in team 1. And in that way I'm probably glad to be in team 2, even though it is of course an honour to be in the first team, and have a chance at pretty pretty gold. But I'll probably be afraid to lose sight of what I quit squash to join frisbee for - not to place undue pressure on myself but really just enjoy working in a team and having fun instead of dealing with competition stress all the time. And that's what really matters isn't it?

Saturday please come quicccckkkkkkkk!

#25: The Boundaries & How They are Crossed.

2008-07-08T19:00:00.002+08:00

I got pretty mad today when I thought back about it. Some people just have to realize the difference between being adorable and being just plain annoying, and to know the difference between something that need not be fussed over and something that is of great importance.

Honestly I'm getting tired of navigating my way around this tricky situation.

Well I realise that I get quite overbearing when it comes to things like this, but really, no one understands that I have to be this way in order to get something done, and some people are just oblivious to things, even when it's blaring in their faces. I tell them to wake up their idea and snap back to reality.

It gets pretty annoying when people don't realise that they don't only have a responsibility to themselves, but also people around them whom their often-stupid actions impact greatly. Just by casually ignoring the situation, they think it's going to make it go away. Well newsflash dears, it's not, and it will never, and so if you are going to carry on this way, then don't blame me when things don't work in your favour.

Some people probably know what I'm referring to, and I'm hoping that the people I'm referring to would realise that I am. I don't enjoy being the domineering one, but you probably should ask yourself whether it's necessary.

#24: The Mac is Back.

2008-07-07T23:53:00.005+08:00

My beloved laptop has returned after a period of inactivity due to the faulty plug which fused due to unforeseen circumstances of which I am still unaware of. But never mind about that. It is back and I love it very much :)

It's been a trying few days, seriously. I'm discovering more and more about myself every day and I'm not quite sure whether to be glad about it or not. This is causing an influx of emotions and thoughts of which I am unsure of how to handle, and the feeling of not being in control and in sync with all the changes is not quite comfortable.

But life is short, and far too precious to be dwelling on any single thing for such a long time, and I've learnt that no one is to blame for your foul mood, you have to do something to make yourself feel better.

So, today was the much-awaited outing with the squashers, though eventually out of a possible 7, only 4 turned up. I blame it on poor timing and a general lack of organisation which will be rectified the next time something is to be planned.

Am quite lazy to go into details, so I'll shorthand this. Great company, great food, good fun and lots of camwhoring.

Sucks to Mich and Zes who have defected and had dinner with the rjsquashers, and Yuwen, who shall be berated the next time she is sighted.

#23: Enigmatic

2008-07-04T21:28:00.002+08:00

To put it plainly, I am not feeling fierce right now.

I'm pretty overwhelmed by the gamut of emotions that are hitting me in the face right now, both in terms of magnitude and variety. I didn't think it was possible to have that many feelings at once. Disappointment, confusion, little bit of undirected anger, torn by the need to remain optimistic and the want to just wallow in self-pity for a while coupled with PMS, and I am a time-bomb waiting to go off.

Well I can't say that I didn't see it coming though, I just hoped that perhaps things would have a chance of turning out another way. It's probably not politically correct to be thinking what I am right now, but I am only human, so just let me have my feelings.

To start things off, some people will probably never know what it feels like to have worked hard for something and have it wheezed past your face in the most unceremonious manner possible. And to have it repeated over and over again until your mind and soul is battered from fatigue and unsure of direction. To be holding on to faith so tightly and have something you hoped for prove to be a stab in the dark is like climbing up a mountain and then falling off a cliff.

I guess to have high expectations, of things, of people is a very bad idea altogether. The more you expect, the more you anticipate, the more you believe, the more you simply disappoint. I guess that's the way life is, and we should just roll with the punches. I'm glad, however, that some people are still worth the effort :) To people who say something and mean another, my anger is wasted on you.

To the people that have faith in me, I will work hard and try not to let you down, for I know what being let down feels like - awful. And though my faith may waver, it will never disappear despite the situation, because that's what faith's about - holding on when you feel like letting go.

This has been a cryptic and incoherent post with no semblance of organization whatever. Referred to many things, and people when writing this post, so please do not flippantly assume.

I'm not just a number, so watch me FLY.

#22: I AM HOT.

2008-07-03T21:17:00.002+08:00

Woe. I have been running a fever since PW in the afternoon and have been shivering my guts out even though it's a sunny day and I'm wrapped in a thick pullover. I suspect its the frisbee in the rain yesterday, which incidentally also caused my back, arms and quadriceps to ache horribly, culminating in the speed of my walking being reduced to match that of a tortoise on tranquilizers.

On a side note, trials went well yesterday, mainly because there were not enough girls and we're probably all in but at least I didn't need to deal with the pressure again. Pressure makes me lose hair. But I guess I'll have to train doubly hard in order to deserve a spot in the team; I really don't want to get in just to fill up numbers.

The train ride home today was especially harrowing. I was dizzy and my legs hurt, the train was crowded, and to top it off I had no seat and had to stand all the way back home. I was tearing from discomfort and this awful woman had to make things all bad. Here's what I'd like to say to her except it's rather rude to say in her face and I probably wouldn't dare to but she really ought to know that:

1. Lace darling? Nono.

2. It is hygienically unsound to be digging your nose and ears, scratching your face and biting your nails all at once. Much less in public.

3. When you dig your nose, don't do it so vigorously. I understand your determination to yank pieces of dirt out of your respiratory canal, but that amount of force often leads to nosebleeds.

4. Try to use just one finger if you REALLY must spring clean your nostrils. Yes, we were created with 5 fingers on one hand, but there is really no need to use them all. This would be what we call efficient allocation of resources.

She wasn't offending me or anything, but the fact that she had a seat and I didn't just exacerbated the gross things that she had to display in public domain. And all through the train ride there was a permanent look of horror and disgust etched on my face, it's probably going to take a fair amount of Botox to fix that.

And I ought to go to bed and convalesce now.

#21: SPONGEBOB TAKES OVER THE WORLD!

2008-06-28T22:51:00.002+08:00

Today was yet another day spent with the frisbee people. They are the only people whom I would take a train down to Bishan willingly just to spend time with, honestly. I love my CCA very much.

So the bunch of us went to Joshua's house, which was quite splendid, by the way. When I grow up, I'm going to grow rich and have a house like that, except it would be double the size, have 2 bubble lifts, a gigantic pool and a large field for my pet tigers to roam around in. I would also have 5 maids - 2 under me, 2 under my very rich husband and 1 woman that I bought from vietnam to massage my feet. (Am kidding about the vietnamese woman, please do not sue me.)

I always go off tangents.

We watched 300 and spongebob squarepants and random youtube videos on Josh's lovely TV while some played pool on the roof, topless. The mundaneness of this post is unable to fully capture the fun I had, because I am tired, and words can only bring you thus far.

I thought it'd be artistic to take the picture lopsided but....apparently not.

I've always had a good relationship with my CCA. First RGSquash and now Ultimate. Well, they are both different and unique in different ways, but they are both irreplaceable. For one, batch007 was a group of people that grew throughout the 4 years. From a 12-strong team, we dwindled to 7 people standing, but quality beats quantity anytime. It seemed that with RGSquash, they were really the kind of people that you could have fun with (not that Ultimate can't, but it's different) and also talk about intimate stuff to. That was and still is irreplaceable.

Ultimate consists of LOTS of weird people with different personalities and weird penchants (choonhiang, who holds a fork to his eye and says, " YOU'RE IN JAIL") which makes hanging out with them much fun! Well they're both different, but they're what I treasure most.

K I know this is a little out of character because I don't usually explicitly express my appreciation for things, so please appreciate it before it's gone.

#20: HALLELUJAH!

2008-06-28T11:32:00.001+08:00

So yesterday was the Climatic End of the Common Tests, which ended with jubilant cheers from everyone in the ISH. After all, the Bio-taking people end last, and our joy was much-awaited.

It didn't quite sink in until half an hour later, when my joy and excitement at the prospect of NOT having to study all the time was expressed through sporadic shrieks and shouts to the dismay of leeqi and hannah, who had to put up with it all afternoon. What can I say, I express myself in unique ways.

The late morning was spent watching them train, for my wound has not yet completely healed, and it would probably not be very wise to engage in vigorous exercise before that. But the afternoon was spent with HANNAH BANANA, who very nicely followed me back to RGS to collect my O level certificate after a few months of procrastinating. Met the juniors at the squash courts unexpectedly, but it was quite cool seeing them all again, they've grown so much! Very amazing how much they've improved.

After that, we went prancing around Orchard after a LONG time of settling for Junction 8 which is quite pathetic in every aspect. And we ended up at Borders - every Rafflesian's haven - and indeed we met quite a few Rafflesians there, but they were engaged in more intellectual pursuits while we read baby books like "THE PIGEON WHO WANTED A PUPPY" and basically BASKING in the luxury of post-CT freedom

Like laughing at the extensive range of Weekian-products available.

And reading funny cards!

But there's one thing that post-CTs brings that is not pleasant..

Decluttering.

#19: M^4

2008-06-25T19:59:00.004+08:00

My wrath shall be sublimated in to this ONE picture.

Indeed, a picture speaks a thousand angry, hateful words.

#18: Off Come the Stitches!

2008-06-24T12:18:00.004+08:00

So today I took a trip back down to the hospital to get my stitches removed. Can't say I wasn't afraid, for having pieces of thread slowly pulled out from within your skin is not a particularly relaxing affair. But then again, nothing could have been more harrowing than having your above-eye-area split down to the bone, and so I face it with aplomb!

First I had to lie down on a surgical table, while the assistant played soothing music. That sort of frightened me a little actually. It was like a subliminal message that they had to CALM YOU DOWN before attacking your wounds with brute force while you are caught unaware.

But it was alright. Nothing particularly exciting or bloody about it, you'd be glad to know (or otherwise?) and it took a grand total of 5 minutes for the surgeon to use a pair of scissors to cut the threads and pull them out of my face.

That cost the school another $200. Damn, now I REALLY want to be a plastic surgeon.

And so now my wound has progressed from looking like a pirate's gash to looking like pink and raw sashimi (according to captain's very wild and vivid imagination, and his innate ability to relate morbid scenarios into something palatable). And I will no longer have to tolerate comments enquiring the reason for my choice of blue threads for my stitches and thinking of repartees to refute their very unnecessary question. Disclaimer: I DID NOT CHOOSE THE THREADS.

Now back to tiding over this awful periods with exams interspersed between off-days.

#17: 1 down, 3 to go.

2008-06-23T18:06:00.002+08:00

And so Econs was the disaster that had to happen. Far off in a corner of an imaginary world, my h3 econs dream withers like a large smelly Rafflesia flower.

Once again the forces of evil collude to make my life as miserable as it possibly can be.

Disaster #1: My handphone is with me.. when it ought to be in my locker, along with all the unnecessary items.

Disaster #2: I leave my pencil case in my locker, along with all the unnecessary items. Thank goodness for good classmates who offer to lend me stationary to tide me over the heinously long economics paper, during which my grave was dug and eulogies said. Yes, R.I.P. me.

Disaster #3: I receive the paper and stare blankly at it, while deep in the recesses of my brain, I desperately will the synapses of my neurons to FUNCTION and produce a reasonably cogent answer.

Disaster #4: There is no break between the papers.

Disaster #5: Everything I studied didn't get tested. Honestly.

I am going to bemoan the death of my economics grade now.

p.s. HAPPY BIRTHDAY PUHWAI! HERE'S TO MANY MORE AWESOME FRISBEE TRAININGS.

#16: The Day has Come

2008-06-23T09:23:00.002+08:00

I have an Economics CT in 2 hours and I'm blogging. Awesome.

Very ironic that the day I wake up latest is the day of my CT.

#15: Frankenstein awakes

2008-06-22T16:33:00.003+08:00

I get awakened by my sister, who is yelling like a banshee, who has a headache. I am unable to sleep any more, and proceed to do some math.

I think my life adequately epitomizes the chinese idiom 祸不单行, loosely translated to be misfortunes don't occur singly. First, my sister gets a cut on her chin, and requires stitches, then right after nearly being knocked down by a car, I get a gash on my face and require stitches. And now, my other sister has a headache. My life is full of drama, honestly.

However, I think my eye is getting slightly better. The swell is going down and i can feel my double eyelids coming back. I will no longer look like a Mongolian with single eyelids and a sullen face.

The minutes tick away, and we are brought closer to The Great Apocalypse. Good luck everyone, try not to die.

#14: The Convalescence

2008-06-21T21:02:00.003+08:00

Day 2 of living without a face:

I wake up in the morning and realise that my eye CANNOT BE OPENED properly and my above-eye-area has swollen to the size of mini-golf-balls. Damn, I think, it wasn't a dream after all.

But! I will be thankful for the little graces in life, for the situation could be very much worse and I ought to count my blessing, not my misfortunes (although truthfully my misfortunes outnumber any blessings). Please God, just let me make it to ONE dean's list.

Blessing #1: I could have been taller and my eye could have been injured instead. See Zhefei? Being short is not that bad after all. (Though I am soon catching up with your 1cm height advantage)

Blessing #2: I could have to pay the surgery fee, but thank God for insurance.

Blessing #3: I have lovely CCA-mates who really come through in times like these.

Blessing #4: It wasn't anyone else who got injured (except for towkay) and they ought to count their blessings too.

And because I'm in a list-making mood, here's what I've learnt from The Big Bang:

#1: Always have a nice pair of spectacles (which in this case, I do not), because there're bound to be times like these where you're forced to wear them to school due to the fact that one of your eyelids is awfully enlarged and you are unable to shove pieces of plastic into your eye.

#2: Never underestimate the impact of a collision. We are not ideal gases.

#3: Maintain good relations with doctors so that they will try not to exacerbate your pain.

#4: Always look out for other people even when you're trying hard to grab a frisbee in mid-air.

#5: If warm liquid flows down your face, yep, that's blood.

I think I went slightly mad yesterday though. I vaguely remember Ms Pang asking me if it hurt, and I answered with a "it's mildly cathartic".

What the hell was I thinking.

#13: The Big Bang

2008-06-20T21:28:00.006+08:00

Wow. Today was quite a day. Today, all the cosmic forces of the universe engage in a conspiracy to plough me into the depths of agony.

I wake up multiple times in the night, each time thinking of getting up to study but dismissing it due to fatigue each time. And so I finally wake up at 6.45am, secretly hoping that it would rain so that training would be cancelled (I was tired).

I trudge despondingly to school and play frisbee from 8-10, nearly missed getting knocked down by a car on the way in to school, and then the Big Bang happens. Zk throws a frisbee and I try my hardest to FINALLY catch something after a major bout of awful plays and guess what? I collide Head-on with towkay. This was not a perfectly elastic collision, by the way, we exerted extremely significant forces on each other, which result in some very disastrous results.

All I saw was towkay's glasses flying off on the field and then him groaning in pain and then blood flowing down his chin. The next thing I knew, warm blood was flowing down my face into my shirt.

I try to find the origin of the blood, and the next thing I know, someone around me was screaming by the colossal volumes of blood trickling onto the grass. This was the first time I've seen

genuine looks of horror on boys who normally watch Saw because of it's gory nature. That's because this time it's real, guys.

Nick throws a towel in my face and instructs me to KEEP IT THERE to stop the bleeding which was when I establish just how much blood I was losing. By the end of the epic collision, Zhefei's towel was soaked in my blood and had to be thrown away, in much disgust I believe.

The whole incident was rather hazy, and we were rushed from place to place for treatment. First to the PE Department where the teachers quickly cover up our wounds, which were gaping, by the way. When I went to remove my contact lens, I looked in the mirror and voila, I could see my skull. Except I didn't know it was my skull until the

plastic surgeon that operated on me (don't judge me) told me that the skin, fats and muscle on my wound had been split apart by the impact of the collision. Eww, I know.

The whole surgery was quite fun, actually. He jabs my eye with local anesthesia, which by the way is an awesome discovery, and proceeds to sew up my torn muscles, facial fats and skin in order. I emerge from the operating theatre slightly hazed and looking like I have 3 eyebrows. I am a freak. The operation which took about 40 minutes cost the school $1837.19. I am so going to be a plastic surgeon.

I return to school to resume mugging and show my battle scar to many who gape in horror at the stitches on my face.

And we fastforward to now, when there is a dull throbbing pain in my temple and bathing is a hassle. I'm going to keep relatively perspiration-free for this whole period. Now how dare you say frisbee's not hardcore.

#12: Phosphoglyceraldehyde!

2008-06-18T23:07:00.001+08:00

And thus the mugging regime continues. Quite riveting the way you get to search of new and fun locations to study in school, especially after the library closes.

Today was spent trying to differentiate photosynthesis and respiration and the countless molecules involved in both processes and basically busying myself with silly mundane things that nevertheless have to be done.

Behold, my masterpiece.

#11: In which I am running out of titles for my blog post.

2008-06-18T00:17:00.000+08:00

So, this is when the Law of Diminishing Returns sets in, when I am far too engrossed in other people's affairs to be managing my blog and typing regular blog posts.

These 2 days have been nothing short of harrowing, during which I spent awfully long periods of time cooped up in the school library desperately cramming information about biological molecules into my soon-to-be-saturated mind, save for the occasional toilet breaks and the sporadic moments when something distracts me.

Studying in school could be an oddly enjoyable pastime that I probably should adopt in the days to come, especially when the school library is furnished with large, clean tables for you to flippantly spread your piles of notes on and the air conditioner is of optimal temperature (unlike the tutorial rooms where you feel like you're in Alaska and you can do NOTHING about it). The whole ambience just makes you feel smarter and motivates you to work harder, somehow. I figure that's probably why I've been seeing the same people at the exact same positions in the library.

So yes, this just about sums up my not-so-exciting life in the duration of Operation CTCT after which I will emerge unscathed and 2457204756015 times more interesting.

#10: 8 days

2008-06-16T12:47:00.000+08:00

The procrastinator in me has surfaced yet again. I've spent the entire day watching Will and Grace and all I've learnt today is how to insult people with funny gay puns, completing neglecting the need to study for the impending CTs.

However, I have come to love Chemistry a lot! It suddenly occurred to me that the Chemistry department in RG just didn't appeal to me, fueling my lack of aptitude in the subject but RJ is tons better and chemistry is now quite enjoyable. Especially since the lab benches aren't splashed full of acid or stained with Thiosulphate or smell terrible thereby rendering it incapable of being slept on. Also, we are not forced to wear ugly disgusting oily lab goggles. That helps.

Twas yet another boring day at home.

#9: FUSSPOT

2008-06-13T21:54:00.000+08:00

Today started mundane, but turned out to be quite an eventful day after all.

Training in the morning was as usual - people running their guts out while I sit sedentary in the shade of the building studying the properties of various molecules wishing that I could be out there running my guts out as well. I am growing fat, and I need exercise.

After training though, we went off for lunch and then to the highly-anticipated (to me, anyway) IT fair, which turned out to be a letdown after all. So this is an outline of how the very disappointing fair went:

- Leeqi and I go round the hall collecting various brochures for laptops, declining every offer to explain the details to us. Having worked there myself, I know they only smoke you into buying things, and I refused to be conned.

- I scour the place looking for an attractive laptop case, only to realize that -- there are NONE.

- I stop to look at earphones, only to realize that they were phony (ooh phony earphones, I am punny) and the salesperson was trying to smoke me into buying them. NOT YOUR LUCKY DAY DUDE, this is how the conversation went:

Salesperson: These are original larh, they took the original and go and make, so is original like apple one.

(I look at the price. 1 for $6, 2 for $10. I wasn't born yesterday.)

Me: No, they're not.

Salesperson: Really original.

(At this point I examine the earphones and conclude that they are indeed different from the original.)

Me: (scoffs) No, they're not!

- I walk around the fair and subsequently Funan Centre for more than 6 hours, and all I purchased was one USB Card Reader.

And this is what I conclude: I am fickle.

#8: WHAT?

2008-06-13T02:21:00.000+08:00

I am inclined to believe that SPH is rigged full of Raffles- hating people that enjoy publicizing our defeat on national newspaper.

YOU WILL NEVER GET US DOWN.

#7: Operation CTCT

2008-06-12T13:30:00.000+08:00

And so, this is how I spent my lovely Wednesday: discovering and appreciating the joys of differentiating logarithmic equations and Stoichiometry in which mole ratios are heaven sent all while hiding in the school library sneaking sweets to keep myself from twirling off into torpidity. Honestly when you're studying it's just like suffering from narcolepsy and having regular urges to drift off into another world in which nobody cares about Iodine-Thiosulphate reactions.

Yet there were a fair number of people insane enough to join me in my quest to Conquer The CTs (which I henceforth refer to endearingly as Operation CTCT) with glorious amounts of worksheets unkemptly strewn across the library tables amid fervent attempts to make up for all the naps we took in tutorials. That'll teach us.

The entire day was spent in a strange trance, screaming incoherent words ("FRICKANEHNEH, FRICKANEHNEH") while furiously scribbling equations 'and staring blankly into, well, blank space. I can barely wait till this is all over.

Operation CTCT is one that fills you with all sorts of emotions all at one time which culminates into one very very unbalanced person. Euphoria from FINALLY differentiating something right, frustration from not being able to comprehend the chain rule and not being able to read one's own writing (guilty), anger when you spend an hour trying to solve ONE question in utter disbelief that you're TRAGICALLY STUCK and then realizing that THERE HAS BEEN A TYPING ERROR IN THE QUESTION (@$&%^! that actually happened to me) and finally, satisfaction at a job well done (which in my case is awfully rare).

Now, back to my graphs.

#6: A HOT MESS.

2008-06-11T02:53:00.000+08:00

It is official. I am living in a pigsty.

I just spent 7 whole minutes searching for my Ipod and panicking over its loss and I even traced my footsteps to a week ago, only to realize that it was buried in a gigantic pile of files, papers and random math books on my study table.

Whatever am I going to do?

#5: Happy 54th Passion Day!

2008-06-11T02:05:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 54TH PASSION DAY 209'05! (yes we are that cool, okay)

Nothing beats us, and I love you guys <3!

#4: Temporary respite from APs and GPs

2008-06-10T14:15:00.000+08:00

My back is putting me in tremendous discomfort. For the uninformed, I sprained/pulled/something my back muscle, and as a result, my daily activities have been reduced to those that do not require any movement of the back, thereby ensuring that a previously trivial activity such as wearing shorts is sufficiently painful to ensue a tiny scream.

I'd like to attribute my very dismal situation to the countless hours I spent sitting vigil in a tour bus with less than desirable legroom trying to make myself comfortable. At this point in time, I'd also like the shift the blame to the petulant child seated behind me on the plane (Korean National Airline, not impressive) who demanded that i straighten my chair to accommodate his eating times (I know, I am just being unreasonable, but YOU TRY) and exhibit signs of ADHD (Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder.. I am not making this up) by generating movement large enough to keep my chair vibrating for 6 hours straight. Trust me, it was not a pretty sight. I think children like that ought to be put on tranquilizers and made to sleep for the welfare of the other passengers on board.

But I digress! My trip to the physician in a futile bid to alleviate the pain ended up in increased pain over the past day. Her massage, which was very violating I must add, is making me ache in places I never knew had muscles and that is probably a very valid reason as to my lack of productivity.

Or so I'd like to believe.

#3: In which I am STILL evading math

2008-06-10T05:09:00.000+08:00

I am highly delusional. Am currently under the impression that there is sufficient time to finish my copious amounts of revision and re-learning (especially for math) to do. As such, I have spent my morning half-heartedly doing math while being infinitely more interested in listening to music and installing playlists on my blog. This whole blog business is time-consuming indeed.

And I apologize if you're like me, and hate going to blogs which blast music that interrupt your own music but I'd like to think that my taste in music is rather impeccable, hence the playlist stays and if you're not happy about it, you can always pause it.

My mugging regime, despite being rigorous and well-planned is falling to nought due to my simple inability and lack of discipline to stick to it 100%. But soon, soon, i shall vanquish all instance of unproductiveness and conquer the heights of Econs, Math, Chemistry and Biology and not forgetting PW (by the way if you are free enough to read my blog, you are probably free enough to do this, so please help me, thankyouverymuch. p.s. please put yes for the first question kthnx) And I will remain alive and very much sane! Of course, all this will come at a price: My social life (what's left of it) will fall to shambles and my brain will be saturated with bounties of information that I shall lose all sense of humour and love of fun. That would only be worth it if the cosmic forces of the universe work in my favour and I somehow manage to smoke my way onto the Dean's list. However, I am not THAT delusional and the chances of that happening (and I am fully aware) are just about as rare as Hoang The The Gia taking a bath. Marginal Cost outweighs Marginal Benefit, and being a rational person, it's never going to materialize. But it never hurts to aim high.

Alright, I'm going to go attempt to salvage my atrophying brain.

#2: In which I abandon my pursuit of Math (temporarily)

2008-06-09T12:53:00.000+08:00

All I can say is, I'm not feeling fierce right now. Graphs are driving me crazy I can never remember which way to stretch them. In my opinion, it barely matters but apparently MOE regards it as an essential lifeskill which I have to master, so I will trudge on in my academic pursuit with aplomb! Tomorrow (:

The prolonged periods of time during which I attempt to cram 24507862735 gb of information into my brain and hope that it stays sedentary often translates into my mind going off on tangents and thinking about things completely unrelated to work. And it is also a delightful time of discovery for me as well. Here are my shocking realizations:

1. I am immensely weird. I simply cannot wash only one hand, it throws me off balance and I lose my entire centre of being.

2. I wash my hands up to my elbows. If i suddenly find that my elbows are not wet, I return to the sink to splash water on them. This also means that the PUB bill is largely contributed by my eccentricity.

3. My nervous system works like a vending machine, you have to slot in candies from time to time in order for my brain to properly function.

Wow, I wonder what kind of genes i have inherited from my parents. Whatever they are, they are very strange indeed.

I also realize that I tend to overutilize my blog at the beginning, and also at the most inappropriate times (e.g. NOW) when there are more important things niggling at the back of my mind. In time to come I will sorely regret squandering my time like that.

It is scary the way I'm not caring.

#1: The Dawn of Consciousness

2008-06-09T05:41:00.000+08:00

All hail! I've finally decided to get a new blog because I figure that my GP could do with a little improving (30/50 for essay is not looking good) and I'm supposed to be studying so any distractions are quite welcome. I also realized that wordpress is the cause of my tendency to escalate blog posts to the height of formality because of it's excruciatingly boring layout. As such, I have moved back to blogger despite its copious glitches and its apparent lack of compatibility with my computer.

I initially intended for the blog to be a mark of my growth, but so far I've not seen anything happen, so I shall just treat it like a pastime and ranting ground. And this time I will be careful not to tread on others' toes and write ostensibly politically correct things.

Ah who am I kidding ;)