It's been a trying few days, seriously. I'm discovering more and more about myself every day and I'm not quite sure whether to be glad about it or not. This is causing an influx of emotions and thoughts of which I am unsure of how to handle, and the feeling of not being in control and in sync with all the changes is not quite comfortable.

But life is short, and far too precious to be dwelling on any single thing for such a long time, and I've learnt that no one is to blame for your foul mood, you have to do something to make yourself feel better.

So, today was the much-awaited outing with the squashers, though eventually out of a possible 7, only 4 turned up. I blame it on poor timing and a general lack of organisation which will be rectified the next time something is to be planned.

Am quite lazy to go into details, so I'll shorthand this. Great company, great food, good fun and lots of camwhoring.

Sucks to Mich and Zes who have defected and had dinner with the rjsquashers, and Yuwen, who shall be berated the next time she is sighted.