You're still not getting it. Though honestly, I don't expect you to.

But really. I'm just getting so sick of your ways of seeking attention. Well you're getting it man, but in all the wrong ways, let me tell you that.

And it sucks when all I can do is be a hypocrite and try to appear as though I'm getting along, but if I had my way, you'll probably be out of my life. This may just be a spur-of-the-moment post, but it is the only way I can sublimate my rage and wrath and agony, to prevent myself from erupting like a long dormant volcano.

I am not pleased, and trust me, you do not like it when I am not pleased. Ostentatious, odious and oblivious -  that's what you are.

Oh God, please help me to forgive and forget ): Please slap me if I ever post about this again!

Now on to happier things! (okay yes that was an awkward shift in moods)

I'm really looking forward to frisbee on Saturday. It's really one of the only things that keep me going, even if yes, we may have to run 2.4km after every training henceforth, I will learn to enjoy it. And I'm pretty sure I'll be eating my words come next training.

I guess the good thing about being in team 2 is that there's a significantly larger margin for error, which doesn't come with the pressure of being in team 1. And in that way I'm probably glad to be in team 2, even though it is of course an honour to be in the first team, and have a chance at pretty pretty gold. But I'll probably be afraid to lose sight of what I quit squash to join frisbee for - not to place undue pressure on myself but really just enjoy working in a team and having fun instead of dealing with competition stress all the time. And that's what really matters isn't it?

Saturday please come quicccckkkkkkkk!